Happy Birthday LEELA...counting my blessings!!!!

So,another year has passed and I am in the last year of my 2 series. Wow!!!!  Not a real worry that is I’m just like 24 years and 48 months. And officially, I have joined the “age is just a number” club. Well, age is just a number, nobody can deny that. What matters is how you carry yourself with the people around you.

As I lay in bed in a room full with emptiness, I can’t help but feel completely overwhelmed and filled with ‘that warm & fuzzy’ feeling. The Universe has been incredibly kind to me in many ways &, this time  I’d like to count my blessing

I have started to appreciate what I have. I have just begun to understand what lessons I have learnt all this time.

I have fallen, too many times, and I am never shy to admit, but not too long, I get up… always… brush myself off and I come back stronger…

I have fallen in love, and failed, I don’t feel embarrassed, as, at that moment. I gave it my all; I was never on the fence.

I have had the privilege of growing up around men and women whom laid down the foundation piles of principles, morals and values for me.

I was taught never to abuse and exploit the love, care and concern someone had on me.

I believe in karma, I use to wait to watch the bad stuffs to happen on those who have hurt me and betrayed me and my trust- but now, growing up, I don’t really  see it come around to hit them, so I just leave it a side, stopping it from bothering my mind. I wish them luck.

I was taught that death is the hardest part of the life, at a very tender age L  and the loss of loved ones to death is the most horrible thing one can experience. It’s been 22 years and I still can’t get a relief from the pain. I am very weary of what would happen to my loved ones if I am not around.

I was taught that the only faith I needed to have is in myself.

I was taught that I am fully responsible for my life and no one else, no one can ever take charge or control over my life.

And today, as I turn 24 years and 48 months, I stare at the mirror and I see a woman- that has walked a path that is littered with debris. The amazing thing is, I am still here, I am still breathing, my heart is still beating, and there is nothing to stop me. I have been broke, I have been jobless, I have been alone, and I have been heartbroken, but here I am – Safe and sound

I have finally met someone whom I love and I feel he loves me for who I am. For real, he can accept me for who I am, even when I have my messy bun and oily skin, and messy eyebrow and I am thankful that I found someone who is honest and frank about their feelings to me. He came to me when I was at my lowest… and he held my hand, obviously till now

Yeah we fight, like almost everyday and everyone knows how much we hate each other and how much we love each other. The thing is… there is just that something that holds us together, even tough at times we feel like killing each other.

Thank you Logandran Renganathan,for being a bestfriend, someone I look up to, someone who constantly inspires me, and for all the love you’ve given me. I truly am blessed to have you in my life. I love you and thank you for being there although I know it was hard but you pulled through with me.

I want to be there for them…. My amma… my sisters… My brothers….my family…my friends… everyone who loves me and everyone whom I love

Life has become so much more beautiful, Money has turned into something more of a fuel for my need than a beautiful possession

The fake friends are automatically moving away, with the real ones getting closer.

And I am truly content over this happiness.

 The deep feeling of wanting to be there for the ones I love- to be able to support them, to listen to them and at times to give solution to their problems.

And, to complete my blessings, I want to take the opportunity to thank all the friends who took the time to send your wishes for my birthday, to take time to plan the princess birthday party and the gifts that you guys took time to choose for me … you are awesome <3

 

And for those who believe

GOD bless you and your family

Good things…

Withlurvelyla